i aint gonna let you get away,
holding hands nv made me feel this way,
so special,boy,its you smile,
i realised we were so in love.

so bored in the office!

so i decided to blogg! (:

change timing,will be going at noon instead

tosky having exam at 1pm,which means by the time he's done,

i ll be on the way to the airport.

later going for piano lesson again.

whad a boring monday.

the thought of seeing piano teacher makes me turn off totally.

you wanna know why?

cause she will doze off when i m playing.

makes me feel like i m playing LULLUBYE.

shall do some self entertaining in the office cause i m damn bored.

hope today end faster! :D

hope to buy lots of stuffs back!

looking forward & not,

contradicting myself this time.

wonderfool day at sentosa.

finally-the end of a busy week.catch CJ7 with tosk at cine on fri night & went home together with kirs & bob.GOSH,ITS A NICE & FUNNY SHOW.They came to stayoverat my hse.Tosk came at 1am plus & we all fell asleep soon after.ZZZ.Sat morning woke up,mummy sprain her back! We ate moodles for breakfast & set off to sentosa at noon.Cabb there,& saw an accident on the way at clementi highway.EEUU.we went cafe delma,& tosk & i went over to another small island & took lots of photos.The day at sentosa ended at 5 plus & we took monorail to vivo to have dinner at FOOD REPUBLIC(:.

Shopped for a while after dinner & went to the rooftop at vivo.Tosk & i kinda had a talk about my trip to taipei,& he started saying a lot of stuffs which made me feel really sad,& he..cried! Its like,tears just flowed out,he said :"i cant even talk to you,& i cant even see your smile".& that was the reason why we took so many photos at sentosa just now. Yes,dramatic,but i was loss for words and tears flowed outta my eyes too.

then,NO MORE BUS & LAZY TO TAKE TRAIN!

12am.Dad came over & drove us for supper @ bukit batok coffee shop and went home at 1plus.

me & tosk stayed at the playground till 3am(:

think tosky is still sleeping now. Here i am, loading photos.......

loaded(:
(look at the pencil fish! & the tosky retarded photo which made me laugh for hours.HA-HA-HA)

so much to say,yet so little words.

super duper bored in the office!

tues morning flying to taipei if nth crops up.

looking forward!

"gonna go there to shop till i drop! :D"

but 1 wk. gonna miss everyone.!

feeling a litt hungry now.alone in the office-

tosky is on an excursion.

sounds pretty weird for a class of 18/19 years old guys to go on an excursion uh.

BRAWHA-HA-HA-HA

imissuncletosky!

nothing much to post..yst had a couple of WORLD WAR IV at home.& guess whad? my face & my hands ended with painful scratches.(with mummy the designer's scratched marks).WTF,you'll nv believe it.I was crying all the way.Tosk rushed over to meet me after i called him weeping like shit. Ha..Went to his hse for a while & he sent me to work. Went to office to take smth then went down to UOB plaza.Digged my way there cause i lost my way!! Fitness @ work ended as usual 8pm & i carried a box of left over fruits home! think add up also got like 70 apples.HAHAHAHA.Tosk & i took 190 back,went home to eat & met up with him later.

Quarrelllllll. sigh. went home at 2.32am . ):

saw xia xue's blog.no wonder she's a famous blogger luh.Her blog's kinda funny,or rather humourous at the same time.its like,though there's many words,you wont get tired of reading it.maybe 1 day i'll be like that too. (wait long long).uh-ha.i m bored in the office,reading ppl's blogs randomly.hope today will pass fast & it will soon be wkends soon!!(:

the world's most fuck-ing feeling.

you'll nv imagine how it feels.

like an abandoned toddler,

walking down the streets-so empty,so lost..

yes yes yes!!i m so happy now!!:Di got into integrated events management in SP,though its not the school i wanted,but the course!!! yeah!so happy now.Called mummy & tosk immediately after i made the call from the number eve gave to me.I called the voice mail from MOE like 4 times,scare that i hear wrong or self-dillusion maybe.(ermhmm)haha.i m so happy now!!gosh...(:

things to be done:
1.pay for AYM's bill ($957.75)
2.save money
3.diet diet man..
4.spend more time with tosky & mummy (:

i just wann you to be happy

i promise,

we will stay like this,

as long as i can.

thanks for everything.

i mean it,ACK.

Friday 15/2/08

work as usual.After work hurried down to Ps to get a bdae cake for eve.Went fish&co.She cried when she saw me.Silly girl.i say will go down le lohh.

Ordered New York Fish&Chips.GOSH.

Its DEE-LI-CIOUS!(: The crew there gave a mini-celebration & we went to arcade and play with eve's friend too.Cabb to Music Garage,& we spend the rest of the night there & sang our hearts out.Tosk came along too,12am we sang bdae song to eve(: Stayed all the way till 6am,cabb home. Fell asleep as soon as i reached home.

Sat 16/2/08

8am woke up & cabb to Lorong Chuan Caltex.Charity carwash from all the TARA contestants.Had fun (: Paula grabb me&jingqing cause allan wanna splash her.lols.We enjoyed watching them car-washing too. Lost my way while getting home.AMK's too big.lols.Went home,had lunch & went to sleep.Sunday stayed at home all the way,watched the repeat of jing三顺,& around the world in eighty days by jackie chan.(: Slept early with cucumber facial on my face after talking to john on the phone(:

happy2months (:

HAPPY VALENTINE♥ EVERYONE(:


PART1:
today is finally valentine's day♥ .tosk came at 00.10am wed night.sneaked into my hse sucessfully. haha.thanks for everything.We woke up from the alarm at 5.30am,& sleep till 9plus.Tosk cooked noodles while i bathe(sweet ba-).We ate tgh,prepare & i set off to work.I gave him the present that i spent many many days thinking & doing.The ugly cert,shirt etc.Somehow lame,but..hope he like it..He opened it after he reached home,& said he like it.Lots of work to do,going Indochin the forbidden city for TARA event again,so see tosk at night then!!(ps:weisong said they booked somewhere at MS for dinner)

PART2:

THE AMAZING RACE ASIA FINALE PARTY@ INDOCHINE

rush over to INDOCHINE & started work.Set up everything & got ready to welcome the guests.I saw RANDALL TAN again!as expected,he was with Melody Chen.Allan Wu was kinda loud when he was talking,as followed,the rest of the contestants of TARA arrived in glam dresses and smart shirts.Haa.The Caltex ppl & us finished the registration at 8plus,eve & dannny came to find me(:.Saw tosk,& we hurriedly cabb down to MS jack's place.He damn gan chiong la,lols.Meet up with apple,ah boy,burnett & gf.Waited for so long!Damn hungry,& we went in at 9pm.Dinner was nice,added with tosk in front of me.Its kinda more like a candlelite dinner.HAA!&,best part,a girl waitress came over & gave me a bouquet of flowers(which i complained the while day i dint have) & a ring.Tosk wore it for me,goshhhh..ppl.ENVY ME!ahaha.I was strucked for a sec,dint know how to react.Ahaha,the day ended with us goin to the alongside of esplanade & slack there.(Burnett finally initaited to his gf!!)Ah boy too gave apple a rose with ring inside.Kinda Ro-man-tic- uh..(:Haha.Cabb back in a big big cab for 6 ppl.Tired,fell asleep.Tosk send me back,& i feel asleep soon i reach home.(;i enjoyed my first valentine,& i will nv forget this day.Thanks..really(:

burnett gf & burnett,tosk & me, girlfriend & ah boy(:

Tosking,always tosking,forever tosking(:

today is tue-which means 2 more days to Valentine ♥. BUT I M STUCK AT WORK!!HATE THIS FEELING MAN,its like..i nv had any bfs during valentine's,& yet now have but cant celebrate-FCUK man,have to work!angelia's goin to states 14th morning& there's tons of caltex stuffs to do.Today had meeting & agendas.BUSY DAY-my ACK was at the bus stop-waiting for me.(:silly boy,but i was really really glad to see him after a long tiring day at work.Thanks to you boy,you have brighten my day.Went to fajar then to 437,406 playground,404 playground & lastly 403.Eat GOBSTOPPER & green tea(: Ended with a perfect kiss-

Went home & did some touch-ups for my crappy V day gift for him.(oopps,sorry if its not nice)haha.(:Guess whad,you will nv believe it,cause neither do i.JOHN CALLED-he act one cute,pretended to be steven & asked stuffs about himself.I played along OF COURSE,& we had a long talk..He finally revealed himself & i act as though i was sooo0 shocked.He asked for patch,& we ended the conversation with GOOD NIGHT & SWEET DREAMS.& for now,i finally knew the reason he broke up with me last year's today.

& now,my mind is whirling,was on the phone with ack when i m posting this.We kinda had an arguement about this,& i cried again!getting more & more cry baby,a while jiu wann cry.hate this feeling.Hope that i will make a right decision & not regret when i look back in the future..cause,they are both important to me.One once,& one now.So,HELP!!!i feel so FUCKED now seriously.why must this call be made at this very point of time,when i told myself that i m contented with whad i have & i m happy & blissful.???! so fed-up with life nowadays.

edison:disappointing news!

went to watch AH LONG PTE LTD with dar.funny show.& theatres were FULL!CNY went visiting(: enjoyed myself.THE THOUGHT OF GOING BACK TO WORK TML!!arghhh~sian arh!hahaha.went to DXO after visiting at joy's hse.Chrislyn & i went to my hse & cabbed down at Stevens rd.Joanna & youzhen were outside waiting for us.Brought ticket from xiao jess & went in.Sure had fun,but the guys kept coming over.EEEKK man.Disgusting creatures.3am cabb home.tired.sorry boy,that i dint tell you time & time again..but cause i know you wont like it.today overslept,so dint go church.Met ACK at my hse downstairs at 4 plus,went town walk around.Saw abby & kirs & bob at cine.Went to esplanade romantic.JKJK.there were some CNY fair or smth.Me and tosk brought lots of food.WOOTS~we sat down along the bridge and eat.It was fun.The place was so crowded.10 plus we decided to go back.tired~this weekend was fun...how i wished days would always be like that(:

INDEPENDENT(:

yst's reunion dinner was nice. thnks mum!(: Shawnald called & say he was alone at town.(LONER).I went to find him & went for a movie tgh with my sis & steven. We watched the jay chou show,it was nice! i cried man..zz.Haa.Then they went to play pool & my dad came to fetch us for supper at bukit batok~FULL,& more carbo again.): Then went to meet tosk,sry..sry that till 2am then went to meet you..he look damn tired..i was so..argghh..Somehow we quarrelled..which i forgot the reason..& i just felt so upset.We walked to the canal&saw some ppl playing with fire sticks.Finally,CNY mood..we sat at the fitness corner.WOOTS.Damn cold luh.we dint talked much..i wanted him to go home badly..cause he look tired & he refused&climax.BOOM!he banged the railings with him hands & shouted at me.Gosh.i was speechless.Then he walked me home with no conversation.Do you really love me...?i m getting more & more unsure..its like..i can feel that you care..but at the same time with some ignorance towards my feeling..we were so sure that this time our relationship will work out..but this few days wasnt quite there.sigh~ i also dunno la-maybe i gotta spend valentine's with friends again,cause i never ever had some boyfriend to spend cause every year of that day i m single&available!!haha.later goin visiting alrdy.looking forward(:

kirsten : lets' take more photos on sat yea!!!!!(:
brandon : you die alrdy.confirm suan you till you die man!!!
weixuan&kaishan : finally can see you all man(:
maomao : dunno whether will see you during visiting..will it be awkward?
jw : i m sry i dint know how you felt this 2 months

tears feel like buckets of rain,can you feel it?

我问为什么,那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我,不愿意敷衍我
还是明白你已不想挽回什么
想问为什么我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着,把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕真相太赤裸裸狼狈比失去难受
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后,还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日,也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空,最紧的右手,最暖的胸口,
谁记得,谁忘了 我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动,求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后,也记得我颤抖着,
记得感觉汹涌,最美的烟火,最长的相拥 谁爱得,太自由,谁过头,太远了
谁要走我的心.谁忘了那就是承诺.
谁自顾,自地走,谁忘了看着,我谁让爱变沉重 ,谁忘了要给你温柔,
我放手,我让座,假洒脱,
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了,所以我,没有哭,没有说
-by stephanie sun
suddenly feel like writing out this lyrics which i saw in the net. the song's meaningful* (:

CNY is coming--hahaha. cool man. RED packets are coming in! sry boy,this few days like so busy till there's only a few hours of the day left for you.Hopefully things will be better after i start school yea? (: Just finished reunion dinner. FULL & BLOATED NOW.gosh**.Yuanmei help me to edit my blog (thanks). hahaha.A bit nicer huh?haha.Went to lot one in the morning and decided to go paragon to take my gucci totebag.Yea,but..not the one i wanted.IT WAS SOLD OUT..z.& i got the smaller version.Then went back to bangkit & went for the last spree before every stall close down.Brought lots of stuffs! But..ii m really glad to see my mum happy this few days.My sacrifices are worth it to see her smile yea(:

ps:kirsten & me.i like this photoooo

tosk boy(:

someone: thanks.(:had a fun wkend with our fav sentence: THE NIGHT IS STILL YOUNG~. Ha,lionel drove me home on sat night.Today went back to work. Gordon apologise to me for thurs.Guesss,,he's still quite a ok guy luh.Hmmm,he say he's gonna apologise to shawnald and mingsun too..I can go taipei for Guniness 9 ball tour alrdy! cause my piano exam is on the 20th or march. PHEW.still a month to go~ok la dar, dun say i nv write ok..ACK mannnn! i promise i wont eat cornflakes (NO CONFLICTS). Rmb to bring textbooks home my boy! (:

May the Lord be with those who are crushed in the spirit

ps: some self-high photos of shawnald the small eyes when we were at city hall on sunday(:

haha~ was busy with work this few days. Thurs went to NLB for fitness and had a arguement with GORDONNNN.sigh~guess i have no fate with ppl name gordon. THEY SUCK!Thurs went for a movie with shawnald and ming sun at causeway and watch the mist. Gordon's free movie tickets. Ming sun wanted to tear it and not watch when gordon scolded us all. he sux mannnn.Respect has no age factor. It depends on the things you do! Friday dint go to work and me and girlfriend gave a suprise to ah boy and tosk~ went to their school outside and pick them. Then each went home to change and went town~ shop. Then went to watch the house. SCARRRYyy. Then slack at fajar there then went homee. Today went for retreat with kirs,chris,charis,kelly. Fun,& i finally understand how to disect psalms and easier to read all the verses. Thanks kelly!